January 7th 2026
Digital Journal Entry
Hello world!
Today is an absolute slump of a day. I went out last night and got stupidly drunk and I am currently feeling the repercussions. I just feel very rough and I’ve been rotting all day. I also have a lot of hungover anxiety about what I’m like when I’m drunk, and I feel silly.
My big thought today is that I want to stop drinking on Friday. That’s the day I get my student loan. The day when I can pay off a couple things, before having several thousand pounds sitting in my bank account. It’s important to stop because I need to be saving more money, and my current attitude is not amazing when it comes to saving. I had the thought earlier about my current 2026 goal, and it scared me a bit, because I just need more money. As of now, my plan is to leave my apartment when the tenancy runs out (28th of April) and travel Europe on my own, before getting my degree results in May, and then I apply for my visa stuff, which should be done around June. That all means I’ll have 3 months of not having a home before I can move to Japan. I need to save for that period, alongside having money saved for apartment stuff when I get to Japan at the end. Also! I need some money for Primavera, which now I type it, it seems a bit of a silly idea. A smart person would avoid Primavera while I’m in the biggest transitionary period of my life, but then I’m not a smart person. Also, I am most likely going to do some couchsurfing so that should save a lot. I’m sure there’s some hosts in Barcelona that would let me have a few days off for the festival in exchange for lots of work.
The drinking is my main issue with saving right now just because it happens so often and I spend too much. Even if I go to my local that costs very little, it means I go elsewhere when it closes. That’s a huge sign of pure alcoholism, and I am aware of it. I need to cut it out now, and then I can have a brilliant summer. It’s gonna be worth it!
Side note but it will definitely be a challenge to not drink for my birthday, but I will face it head on. Just gonna try to pretend that it’s not my birthday.
Anyway, today I go for food with my best friend, and we are doing a little pub quiz. I am having a day off from my creative writing but tomorrow I get back on it. Slay