January 5th 2026

Digital Journal Entry

Hello world!

January is such a dry spell for my main job, which sucks for a few reasons. I think my mental health goes down a fair bit because I feel so aimless if I’m not working. I just meander around and act like an NPC, and I don’t feel productive. Working means I’m earning money and that’s good! This month is giving me lots of time to focus on extra bits like my writing though, and that’s pretty nice.

I spent a good few hours yesterday writing my next feature length script, and it’s called Longing To Be Longed. No idea if that name will stick but I like it so far. I’m following a rigid structure this time to see if the script ends up tighter or just boring, because my previous two feature scripts were made with no structure in mind. I just wrote a lot until I felt like it reached a natural conclusion, and to other people it might make the scripts a bit unnatural or just plain bad. I’ll see if following a structure properly will work for the entire script, but so far it’s not too bad! I’m at around 30 pages, and yesterday was super productive.

I saw a pretty bad film with a good friend too, and that was a nice bit of socialising before I hibernate again. I have a weird relationship with my own social battery, like I get so miserable and depressed being stuck at home for days on end but then I go out and chat to people and think they all hate me for a million different reasons. It’s a weird paradox. I should probably talk to a therapist about that, but oh well.

Nothing else to report though. I will keep on grinding and working and writing stuff.