January 18th 2026
Digital Journal Entry
Hello! It’s so hard to do these daily, especially since I tend to be quite busy but I will keep trying. I also don’t know how to format these either. I should mention what has been happening, how I’m feeling, and what is coming up, but then I’ve already been doing that so I’m just wasting energy typing this. Oh well.
I’ve been working a bit more, and continuing with the grind. Work is still super fun and I generally really enjoy being there and doing stuff. It feels productive because I’m obviously getting paid but it’s just a nice place where I’m surrounded by nice people. The job itself is pretty standard? Like we set up for an event, then serve for a few hours, then start closing. For bar jobs, it’s very easy, and it could be much worse. This is why it’s quite annoying when there are a few staff members who complain all the time about “not wanting to be here” when they are literally getting paid to do almost nothing, but then those people complaining tend to be younger students who’ve never had another job. As someone who’s bounced around from awful to great jobs in the past, I can safely say my current job is on par with first. The first dive bar I worked at when I first got into this industry will remain number one forever I think, because while there were a million issues, it didn’t matter. That place gave me all the skills I have now, gave me way more confidence, and was full of some of the loveliest people on Earth. What a place, and I miss how good that winter was.
Enough with the nostalgia though. I have quite a few days off now, so I will get onto more writing and grinding away at some stuff. I want to get back on track with my next feature script, which has been sat on the backburner for a little while now, and I also want to start with my dissertation that’s due in spring. I’m focusing on some films I deeply appreciate, and how they create believable love stories. I love a romance and not something one-note like a cheesy 2000s rom-com, but something nuanced and multi-layered. I’m focusing on Moonlight, Before Sunrise, Monster and Y tu mamá también. All films that have some form of romance involved but offer really interesting perspectives and ideas on the subject. Also it’s super easy for me to yap about stuff I’m interested in.
I don’t know what else to put here? In terms of how I’m feeling at the minute, I’m fairly neutral. I’ve got an exciting goal ahead of me, but for now I’m just existing until spring when the fun starts. Maybe at the moment I feel fairly sad and isolated, but the goal ahead makes me happy and excited, so that’s why I feel neutral. It’s fine though, as the writing will keep me sane and focused. I will now get back to watching the first installment of The Human Condition trilogy, and so far it’s really good!
Thanks for reading.